Blurred Frustrationsss!!

Grrrrr.

Ok I feel better. I guess I'm just thinking that because I haven't taken any formal camera classes that I'm Just missing out on something; ie not understanding it. I Thought I had a handle on this but last night Just proved me wrong..again.

I can't seem to get good Unblurred photo's of people when they're moving. Last night. Christmas Eve. Kids moving!! Blurred photo's =(

Get the image? I also find myself in low light conditions alot and can't seem to work out the settings either. Last night was in a low light living room and just could Not get the settings to work. When I thought I had it....I'd click and the time would just dragggg until the shutter clicked.

Delete. Try again.

So I don't know exactly what advise you can give me; but I'm feeling very discouraged about it today. This is what I know. Low light, open your aperture and bump up your ISO. Shutter speed. Well that still sort of baffles me at times. When I set the shutter speed faster; I end up with a black photo lol.

Grrrrrrrr.

Ok I swear I'm done grrr'ing. But I still don't understand. So can anyone help a sista out here?

Or tell me where to look it up lol.

Oh and Merry Christmas =)

I'm back to work at midnight so I'll check back in.

Here is a sample of what happens to me in low light. I think its a fun photo; because this little girl cousin was really putting a show on for my camera. But it's a blur.

Flickr'ing!

Hey guys! Just thought I'd share some of my Christmas Flickr photo's!
I've been off for a few days; but back to work tonight. Hope your weeks going well and you're ready for christmas!

exHausted!!

Yep. Exhausted. I'm not this tired when I'm working!! Decorating the house has taken all my energy. Good thing I don't go back to work until tomorrow night lol. Whew~

Anyway just wanted to share a moment I had at work the other night that made me think "That's why I love nursing!"

Patients baby had been having decels all night. We all watch the "icky" strips at the desk even if they aren't ours. And all night we were saying.."now That's ugly!" concerning this one strip. Doc was on site and doing all kinds of interventions. Nothing was working. We all knew she probably was going to get "cut". And we were all sitting there when the call light went off and we heard "Call a STAT Csection" when the clerk said "can I help you?". I think most of us got up and sprinted to the room.

There is always alot going on Especially when the section is called stat. No time to waste. So as I helped in the room I noticed the two grandmothers-to-be in the corner. They were holding each other and crying.
"It's going to be alright!" I said to them even tho this was the first time I'd seen them. I sure hoped it would be alright but you never know. But I could see the fear and somehow I just felt it Was going to be alright. As I helped get the girl to the OR I thought more about those mothers. I felt for them...so I went back to her room. They were still there holding onto each other. I told them where they could wait and then reassured them that their baby would come into the world in probably 15 minutes or less. Then I told them that I would peek into the OR and come out and tell them when he was born. "Ohhh thank youuuuu!!!" they both said in chorus.
I didn't have a patient at that moment so I was free. I tossed on a cap and mask and headed for OR#1.

As I stepped inside I could see them pulling the little guy out. It's such a surreal thing to see doctors fish baby's out of abdomens. I still am so amazed by the skill. He was limp and not very responsive; but the Ped team quickly got him stimulated and with a little blowby O2 he started crying loudly. We all breathed a sigh of relief.

I headed out the door and down the hall. There in the waiting room were the grandmothers. Not grandmothers to BE but real grandma's!

"He's born"!

I shouted as I walked towards them. They jumped to their feet shouting and running for me. They both were crying but now it was tears of joy. I almost started crying with them lol. "Ohhh thank you nurse..." they both said. "Oh no problem; I understand; I'm a grandmother too" I said to them. You should of seen the looks of relief on their faces. I felt so good to be the bearer of great news. And I thought as I walked away...this is why I love being a nurse =)

Bright Red and Shiney

Ok I've been a bad blogger. Please forgive me tho because I've just been too darn busy. Plus I admit I am sorta addicted to flickr and when I Do have a few minutes I tend to wander....

SEE!!!

Ok so I promise an interesting post .. erm tomorrow? I had a lovely moment at work last night and I'll share.

But right now I'm assembling our tree. Bought some cool old glass ornaments too the other day. So I'll share that with you. Hope you have a great Monday night! Ta ta~

Post Thanksgiving Leftovers

Man! My fridge is Stuffed and I swear I am too lol. I can remember years ago I could eat my Thanksgiving dinner and have a turkey sandwich in the evening. Not anymore! I literally fell into bed last night. Stuffed. Full. Done!

So now you know what we're having for supper tonight. But first we're going to the movies this afternoon to see Australia. See you later *urp*

Love After Love

Love After Love

The time will come

when, with elation

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror

and each will smile at the other's welcome,



and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you



all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,



the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.



-Derek Walcott

...but thanks to Shutter Sisters =)

Sharing with Friends..

Back in the 80's I wanted to learn to quilt. So I did! I don't have any time now to do this...but took these photo's the other day to show you that I Could! =)

Machine sewn but all hand quilted. I'm a purist hehe!

* Da Funk *

WW http://www.wayfaringwanderer.com/ is running a challenge here. To name one of our favorite photographer's that we look to for inspiration when we have lost our way...

You know the feeling. The funk. The "I don't know what to even Take a photo of today" kind of funk. Especially now I find it a challenge to find pretty or interesting things. There is not really snow yet and the ground is quickly just turning a dull....brown....drab...blah! No flowers. No color. So what do we do? We look at others and look To others to help us find our groove again.

Well WW herself is someone who had personally helped me find my way in my photography life. Her photo's have inspired me and shown me how to center in on the things around us to find the beauty. Her blog is a joy to read. Her photo's make me want to do better! And I have to tell you; she has been a godsend to me when I've been stuck in a problem. She has helped me and conselled me to help me figure out what I was doing wrong. She took the TIME! For that I am very grateful and happy to have met her here; altho only as a net meeting. Plus she lives in the Blue Ridge Mountains where I hope to settle oneday. Lucky girl!

So when you're stuck and can't get inspired. When you can't even see the light around you; go to your fellow photo blogger's sites and cruise. You'll soon feel that artistic spark again!

Perspective

My perspective today. At Shutter Sisters. What a drop dead gorgeous day. Back to work tonight. I've had just beautiful deliverys this past weekend. Lovely uncomplicated smooth labors with primips! And young girls at that! I was so blessed to be there and a part =)

One girl was giving up her baby for adoption to her sister who couldn't have another baby. A first for me. But they all handled it well. The baby was delicious and fat. Just like I like them lol. She was 17 but taught me something. I learn from every mother I care for.

I'm actually excited to go back tonight!

Oh and I finally took time and went for a haircut yesterday. I loved the girl who did my hair. She understood exactly what I said when she asked me how I wanted my hair. I don't fight my hair. It's thick and curly. So I let it be what it wants to be. Nice layered cut hitting my shoulders seems to work well for me. No ponytail tonight!! Have a great evening friends.

Just Hanging Out...

Yes I did it this morning! Don't get ahead of yourselves. I had written in my pocket calendar that I Live by that I had my Shoulder Dystocia class this am. At 7am. Aghh. So I was up at 5:30 this am and gone by about 6:10 to work.
Well the class is not until 8:30am. So here I sit in the library killing time before I walk down to the other end of the hospital. I could of stayed in bed longer this am!!! I like sleeping in =)
Course poor hubby said I was snoring like a walrus last night. Blech. I may eventually go to the docs to see about that.
So anyway I will be sitting in the class allllll day. Then back to work tomorrow night. This is my weekend to work too. So it will be a busy weekend for me. They say it's going to rain. I don't care since I'll be spending the days sleeping lol. Sorry!
Ok off to class. Sorry I have nothing mind blowing to share at the moment. But check back. Tomorrow's another new day!
Chow!

Go check out my photo's on Flickr. We went to Jim Thorpe a few weekends ago. Take a gander at this front door! No time to post right now..night off. But I have things to share in the am.

Nite all!

My Sweet Elvis. He just our hearts delight on this Fabulous Friday!! Enjoy the Weekend =)

Why Am I a Photographer?

..and how has my perspective changed. This topic is being discussed today on Shutter Sisters. If you haven't already checked them out you are Truly missing some blessings.

I have always been the one behind the camera. Documenting my children's growth and fun moments. I'm not in many of those old photo's lol. But that's one thing that will change this year. I think I will start a self portrait section of my Flickr account. I don't want my essence or image to be forgotten when I'm gone. Pictures help with that. They make time stand still. They make you fall back into the moment. Haven't you ever looked at an old picture and just felt yourself slip back into time? I do! I still do with these photo's of my baby's.

I now love photographing small seemingly insignificant things. Stones, old benches, sky and even leaves on the ground. They become art. Timeless.

Here is one example.

So I encourage you if you aren't already a photographer, to become one. Start with a cheap digital camera and start snapping. Trust me soon you'll want an upgrade. Money well spent. And just think of the timeless moments you will capture for years of remembrance and reminiscing. You won't regret one photo =)

Feeling Quilty but still Feeling Ill =(

Welp I still have this sinus sick thing going on. If it lasts another day I may go to the docs for antibiotics. But I hate to go to the docs lol soooo we'll see.

But I just called out for tonight again and I feel guilty as heck. Why? Because I know that by my not being there that the other nurses may have to pick up the slack. So I feel bad. BUT when I start feeling too badly I remind myself of the other night and almost not getting sent home at 5am because basically they forgot I was sick. I guess. You other nurses know how it is in the real world. They shouldn't want you there Ill, but they don't mind it if you push yourself harder; because they want your warm body there. It just doesn't work like that in the corporate world does it? Oh well. So I'm home tonight. Poor hubby. He said I was snoring like a Beast last night lol. I'm so clogged up.

But on a brighter note I wanted to share a neat birth story from a few nights ago. As you all know I'm relatively new to the L&D dept. Its been about 8 months now. And I've learned so much. I truly love my job. Especially the laboring moms. It's my fave. bit about my job.

So this night I sent my pt. to the OB ward and for a moment didn't have a patient. Yeah for a Minute lol. Charge nurse assigns me a mom laboring stuck at 9.5 cms. Just a lip left on her cervix. But you don't really want to push with a lip. Can cause all kinds of nasty swelling. So they had sitting straight up in the bed. She was Not a happy camper when I came into her room. She asked how long would she have to wait before pushing. So I checked her. Newp. Still had that darn lip. She almost cried...I felt bad, but told her we'd just try sitting for a bit more and I gave her an Epidural (PCA) bolus.

I left her for an hour and she didn't call out. So I went in and checked her again. Ick still had the lip. Now I thought for a few minutes and said "lets try some trial pushing". I knew that it might be possible to help streach the lip over the baby's head if she pushed effectively. So we pushed for about 20 mins. Now I didn't say anything to her but I felt lots of Capet. That's the skin at the top of the babys head that sometimes gives them a conehead because of prolonged pushing. The baby's head was very soft and pointy. I tell her to keep pushing and I'll be right back. I'm thinking to myself all the way to the desk about the situation. I knew I had to call the MD. I spoke with the resident at the desk about it and asked if this could do harm to the baby. Newp she said. Just makes em pointy lol. Then I call the MD. I tell him that I'm not sure she's really moving the baby down, and I feel lots of Capet. He says "Well she's had adequate time to prove herself. Just set her up for a section. Call me back when you know the OR is ready. Byeee!"
I hang up and think. Hhmp! So you think I'm going into this room and tell this 19yr old girl her doc said its section time for her? I tell the Charge nurse but go back and we resume pushing.

Well don't you know it. She makes progress!! I can fell the baby's head closer now and it feels rounder. Goood! So I put the nurses light on and tell them to call the doc but tell him we're delivering via vagina (not in so many words lol).

We push and push!! I can really feel baby moving now, and can see the famous perineal bulging that means the baby's head is very close to delivery. I know call out for Resident standby.

Pushhhhhhh!! Come on girl pushhhh!! THEN. Baby is def. crowning. As I reach for the sterile drape to support her perineum her doctor walks in. "You just made it in time" I say to him. He chuckles. Baby is born about 4 pushes later.

So I felt so good about this. I could of just had her stop pushing and let him come in and section her. But something in my gut (gotten always listen to your gut) made me want to try harder.

Personally, I feel as if I saved her from a section. I mean her doctor couldn't even be bothered to come in and check her himself. He was basically leaving it all to me to evaluate.

Well doesn't matter. I still feel like I helped her avoid getting cut. I know I did. And that was a defining moment for me.

I love my job =)

Just Do It!

Show me Yours!

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Yeah well I have to work anyway...

BooHoo. Here I am. At work. Feeling icky sicky but was too late to call in. Plus, they really frown on you calling in sick much at All in the hospital where I work. If you miss more than a few days during a period of time; they make it an infraction. Yeah you're in trouble. So I try not to call off.
But I've felt sorta odd all day. My throats dry and scratchy and I have a dry cough. I know its my sinus's cause its really irritating the heck out of the back of my throat. Hmmm. So I am here for 12 hrs. Then 12 x 2 again before I get a day off.

Blah.

I blame that darn Michelle (who's last name will remain a secret) cause she worked the other night sick as a Dawg and I was near her.

Yip.

So that's it. I don't feel well. Just wanted to let you know. Gifts would be appreciated hehe!!

Superhero Photo Challenge: The leaf perspective

Today's challenge at ShutterSisters was to take photo's at ground level. You get a neat perspective when down on the ground. You can't even really focus properly. So it's neat to see the beauty that comes thru anyway...here are my photo's today.

A Wee Bit of Heaven

Breakthrough Day!

Gosh!! Is it windy where you are? We're in the middle of some weird storm with high gales. I mean the tree's on my property are bending over! I hope they don't break. Esp. my Tree of Life =).

So I've stayed in today and worked on my photo's. I had a bit of post processing breakthrough and I wanted to share a small bit of it with you.

Here is my granddaughter Madilynn without the splotchy baby acne =)

And her darling sister Hailey =)

I Could just Scream!

Aghhh. I did the unthinkable. I went to my daughter's to take photo's of her precious little girls and forgot to check my camera settings. So when I downloaded the photo's I did get to my PC and took a quick look I saw how rough they looked. ISO 800.

And I did another BAD thing. I didn't charge my battery. Didn't think I needed to. And so halfway thru my session the camera shut OFF.

So remember. Check your battery and setting before doing any photo work. Always. Even when you don't think you need to.

I might be redeemed tomorrow. I'm going back to take some more pics. I'll let you know how they come out.

Keep Trusting Your Instincts

Lesson learned the other night. Listen to your heart.

Woman comes up from triage at 2cms BUT very uncomfortable. After about 45 mins I am able to get the anesth. doc to give her an epidural on her request. No relief. None. Hmmm. She had just been checked downstairs. She was a Primps. First time mommy. So you would not expect anything to happen quickly...

I am sent home early because of quiet night. It's 3:30am. I go into my moms room and take out a pair of sterile gloves. I wanted to check her before leaving...just in case there has been progress. Charge Nurse with 25 or more yrs experience comes in the room and says.. "what are you doing?" I explain I was going to check her. "Newp don't. She's probably 4cms". This Charge nurse is Very bossy and intimidating and when she tells you Don't, well you don't lol.

I start giving report to the oncoming nurse Jen. I see her strip out of the corner of my eye. There are little humps on her contractions. That means pushing is happening. Hmm. "Jen look". I explain to her what happened with bossychargenurse. But I say to Jen. "I just have this feeling...lets go in together. You check her. But I want to know before I leave."

Well Jen introduces herself and pulls her gloves on. You Had to be there to see the look on her face as she sweeps her fingers around the cervix. Yip. You guessed it. There is NO cervix lol. And when Jen says "look" and points to the perineum...I see hair!

So we jump into action. Call the Primary doc and get the resident there asap!

So this primps mom went from 2cms to 10cms in about an hour and a half. Unheard of..but sometimes happens.

I looked at meanchargebossynurse as I clocked out but didn't say anything. I knew it. I should of stood up to meanbossyintimadatingchargenurse. But I doubted myself.Not again I won't. I will keep learning to trust my instincts.

Even tho I'm a newbie. =)

I Love My Bed!!

Well I've had 4 days off.

Which means 4 nights of sleep! I go back in tonight at 7pm and work tonight and tomorrow night. I love some things about working at night...ie: no management lol.

I love the women I work with. And the more laid back feeling. But I love my bed.

Hubby laughed at me last night as I tucked my feet into my cold sheets. I said.."Mmm I Love my Bed!!". He said "yes you do don't you." Don't know why I said it. Just felt so good. Cold sheets again'st my skin. Window open a bit to let the cold night air in. Somehow it's just about perfection! Working nights makes me appreciate my nights I get to sleep even more.

I love my bed!

Super Hero Photo Challenge

...at Shutter Sisters.
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We were challenged to find the beauty sitting right before our eyes. In our kitchen! I took scads of photo's of this and that. But this one jumped off the page at me. So I submitted it =)

I had washed dishes and left the water sitting. I know. Bad girl. Oh well I had things to do..ie: catch up on my blog reading and flickr loading lol. So after I read the challenge I headed downstairs with trusty canon in hand. There was my sink. With the sponge floating. And I thought Why Not!

Pop over and read a bit on the above site. I promise you won't be disapointed! Laters!

Swan's.

The swan's are back for the fall! This was taken at our local stream. The swan's are still skittish. But soon they're venture close to the bank. I'll be waiting with Canon in hand =)

Enjoy your Friday!

A Patience Flower..

An abject lesson in patience is the flower outside our doorway

planted when the spring was young watered,

tended, nurtured through the spring, the summer,

into the cooling of fall bursting into a single bloomin

the middle of October just days before frost

will come into our world

Watching over this flower,

waiting for its blooming

wondering what fruit

it will bear all summer long

by Raymond A. Foss

~Light Nights or Night Lights~

I just love a good sunset. And the evenings here lately have just been spectacular! So I have been snapping and trying to capture the feel of the light thru the trees and off the water. I thought I'd share some before crashing into bed this am lol. I'll be back with L&D storys later I promise!!

Au Natural~ Again!

I had a fabulous mom last night who decided to go Natural with her childbirth. I tell ya! There just aren't many women willing to go that extra mile and decline the epidural these days!

They know I like the natural ones..cause its how I birthed my baby's. So I usually get those mommy's. And I love it!

This mom was a first time mother and determined to go without medication. I asked her why and she said she just didn't want a needle stuck in her back; and she was afraid of the side effects of the epidural on her baby. Her dad asked me what his first grandchild felt like when I did the vag exam. He asked for my name again and said he wanted to remember the name of the first person to have her hands (or fingers) on his lovely wee one. I was touched..

Good points mom! Sorry girls. I know its the popular way to birth these days..and I Have been convinced by more than a few that its appropriate for some situation. But I'm not convinced there isn't risk that we don't know about......now. I'm thinking that one day they will come out with some facts that will scare the crap out of us. Ok so call me crazy. It's just what I wonder about.

So anyway her labor went wonderfully. She came to me at 1am at 5-6Cm's and was 8-9Cm's by 7am. She sat upright (HF) in the bed and was able to walk around her room and go to the bathroom. She breathed thru her contractions and her family was there to rub her back and encourage her. She was just so IN control it blew my mind! I kept the praise up to her and told her what a wonderful job she was doing. At some point when I told my fav OB resident that the pt. was the poster child for natural childbirth, the resident said.."Oh no You're the poster child lol". She knows about my large chubby baby's =)

I was disappointed to leave this am. I hope she had a fabulous birth this am and I can't wait to see how she did.

Women you CAN DO IT!!!

Come Play!

One of my fav blogs and bloggers is http://www.dolcepics.com/

She is a fab. photographer and amazing person! She has this game we play each week where we take a photo off her site that she's posted and we umm..well we Play with it. We do whatever we like!! This is my take on the spooky fall door.

Touching of Hearts

I had a delivery the other night which touched my heart. On first glance you might think the dad was a real toughass. He had a straggly long chin beard and was covered with tatoo's. Now don't think I'm anti tat..cause I have one! Ha! Bet ya didn't know!

But this dad looked very rough. But was polite and softspoken. Mom ended up pushing but not able to pass the baby under the arch. You L/D nurses know what I mean. So after one very long icky decel and then bradycardia, off to the OR we go at 3am.

Surgery went well. Baby boy was glorious!! Apgars 8-9. Perfect.

But what touched me was the dad. Once his little boy took his first breath and was being looked at by Peds; I looked over at dad. He was wiping his eyes and lovingly staring at his son. I told him to come over and see his boy. Dad was just full of tears and apologized for it. "Ohh no" I said. "You shed all the tears you want. You've just become a daddy and your life will Never be the same..."

Small silly post perhaps..but a moment in my job that touched my heart. It's why I love my job =)

Love Thursday =)

John and Emma having Daddy time.

This is what Love Thursday is all about.

I was inspired by this man..

http://www.finearttextures.com/

Wordless Wednesday =)

Looking Back this Am..

..you're gonna miss this..





.. I am going thru all my old photo's looking for some to save on my Flickr page. I came across some really sweet photo's..which makes me sorta sad. My kids have grown up!
You guys with the little ones hear me and here me good! They Do grow up fast. And time Does fly. It might sound trite now. Or you say Ohh Jody they're sometimes just driving me Crazy!
But before you know it they'll be big. And moved out. And on their own. And yes! Thats what is suppose to happen I know! But sometimes I shed a small tear, wishing I could relive those days of young motherhood.

So today, hold your babies close. Even if they're teens. And tell them you love them. And take loads of photo's =).

"You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this"

End of Summer Blues..

Gosh I hate to see summer go. Yeah I know. I'm tired of the heat too. But there is magic in the summer which is gone the rest of the year.
I will eat these blueberries tonight and celebrate my summer.
I encourage you to do the same. And post a photo of something you love about summer. I'd love to see!

I'm a Grandmother!!!...again =)

Wooooot! Daughter had her baby girl last night. 8lbs 11oz of sweetness.

I am going to see her this am and Promise to bring photo's to show you.



*Proud as a Peacock!!*

Going out...

..for Ice Cream!! Wooooot. I have the bestest hubby. Summer is Not over yet!!

Photo's to follow =)

~My Wordless Wednesday~

Magical places. Right out our front door sometimes. =) Opps shhh!

Go here and enjoy ..

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Just Last Night..

I go into work each shift never knowing what awaits me. Am I working L&D, periop, high risk or circulate in the OR. And after about 6 more months I will be trained in Triage. And trained to scrub for the OR.

So last night I was scheduled for 11-7. I arrived at work and was assigned a patient who had delivered but was waiting to be discharged to the postpartum. floor. So there was little for me to do other than assess mom and baby and fill out various paperwork. Easy peasy. Gone by midnight. Then I had no patient until about 3am. The floor was unusually quiet..

We had a baby born with anacephalus. Long story short it means no brain. It was not my patient but I did go into the room to help the nurse assigned to them. Baby was preterm at 21 weeks. Parents were Incredibly strong! Nurse and doctor were incredibly shaken. What a tough thing to deal with. I can't even imagine. They are in my prayers tonight...

So about 3am the Charge nurse comes and asks me to circulate for the next CSection. Yes you heard right. The Next CSection. Apparently they had one after another all evening and thru the night.

Ok so I set up the OR and await the patient. She was a full term mommy who had reached 9cm's but stalled there for a few hours. The Doctor said she had waited long enough. "Failure to Progress" He was "cutting" her. Yeah cutting is the accepted and widely used term for CSection in the OB world. How sad huh? To dilate to 9cms and have to go thru a section. The baby was doing fine; tolerating the Pit well. No decels. No loss of variability. Hmm. So why the section? I don't know but I think he could of given her a little more time. She was not my patient until she hit OR#1...

The section went well. Mom delivered an 8lb plus baby boy and everyone was happy. So after I got her settled into her postop room everything looked fine. I assessed the baby and found his breathing to be very rapid. In the 90's! I called Peds, attached the pulsox and did a blood sugar. Baby looked fine. Just was breathing very fast. I got a phone call to say I could go home if I wanted...things were slow; so off I went. I think the baby probably went to OBS. Observation for 4 hrs. I gave report to the nurse taking over for me and headed for the time clock.

It was 5:30am. Nice to head out a little early =)
I got to see the sun rise as I drove over the bridge towards home.

So that was my night. September 5th, 2008. I'm off the weekend. But already wondering what Sunday night will bring my way..

~Wordless Wednesday~my best parts of summer

Gosh is it really Wednesday? LOL yeah. Well I've been off for a few days and I've lost track. Hmm. Ok so take a look here. This is my first time playing..not my last!

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